英语翻译I used to believe the Patience is helpful for love.I hav

英语翻译
I used to believe the Patience is helpful for love.I have been waiting for long time.But today,I know it's helpless because of some deadly words.Somebody may ask me how you understand the real love is.What's my answer?Maybe yes ,maybe no.
These days,I always have such a question,Are only smart boys can posess their real love?If the answer is YES,then what's the reason.Ugly face,bad hairstyle,close-mouthed character and so on.I just want to tell everyone it not is my error.I also expect to be more handsome.
For her ,I can help her as much as possible and try my best to do any thing.On that so heavy rain day,my friend and I,just had only one umbrella.But some girls including her,they couldn't go home without an umbrella.They asked us lend the umbrella to them.Of course,I did it.In the end,although I saw her mother and her go home with an umbrella that is not mine,I felt very excited.Even her "THANK YOU" made me toss and turned all night.
Now the life of middle school have finished.No doubt about it,my wait has no outcome.the result of last exam has announced.It's my first time that see my mother cry.Her eyes full with distress.At this moment,I konw I'm wrong.I konw beautiful love doesn't belong to me.For me,my mother,my future,being intent on study is the only way.
So,god help me let her go PLEASE RELEASE ME

我曾经认为耐心是有益的爱.我一直在等待很长一段时间.但今天,我知道这是无助的,因为一些致命结束.有一天可能会问我你如何理解真正的爱情.我的答案吗?也许有,也许没有.
这些天来,我一直有这样一个问题,只有聪明的男孩可以拥有自己真正的爱情吗?如果答案是肯定的,那么是什么原因.丑恶嘴脸,坏发型,寡言的性格等等.我只是想告诉大家这不是我的错误.我也期望更漂亮.
对她来说,我可以帮她尽可能和尽我所能,做任何事情.在这样的大雨一天,我的朋友和我,就像只有一个保护伞.但是,一些女孩,包括她的,他们不能回家没有雨伞.他们问我们提供给他们的保护伞.当然,我也它.在结束,但我看到她母亲和她回家用一把雨伞是不是我的,我觉得她非常兴奋.偶数 “谢谢你”让我抛,并把所有夜间.
现在的生活中学已经完成.毫无疑问,我的等待没有结果.在最后的考试结果已宣布.它是我第一次看到我的母亲哭.她眼睛充满遇险.在这一刻,我知道我知道美丽的爱情错误.我不属于我.为了我,我的母亲,我的未来,正打算学习是唯一的出路.
因此,上帝帮助我让她走!请释放我