英语翻译这是23年来第一次一个人过生日.没有蛋糕,没有热闹的气氛,只是这样安静的度过,多少有些孤单.因为不想太多人看到内

英语翻译
这是23年来第一次一个人过生日.
没有蛋糕,没有热闹的气氛,只是这样安静的度过,多少有些孤单.
因为不想太多人看到内心的独白,所以用英语写了这篇日记.
当作留念吧,这个时期的我,是值得记录的.
现在的生活处于封闭的状态.
不跟任何人有过多联系.
所有的情绪都逐渐变得无声.
有时候已经感觉不到自己的心是否还是鲜活的.
关于感情,已经不敢去想.
当我知道你准备离开,伤心的哭了好久.
如果我没有身处这样的变故中,我想我会勇敢一点去找你.
如今已是物是人非,
只能淡淡的说,替你开心,一个人生活要照顾自己.
眼睁睁看着现实慢慢拉开两个人的距离,
渐行渐远.
这样清醒的,隐忍的叫人痛得失去语言.
这一岁的生日愿望竟成为最难下咽的对白.
我希望,你实现你的梦想.
我也会加油,认真的生活,
多年后,如果我们能再相遇,如果我们还是孤单一人,
我一定会不顾一切的去爱你,绝不再懦弱的放弃.
请不要用翻译机翻译,麻烦大家了.

This is for the 23 year first person celebrates a birthday.does not have the cake,does not have the lively atmosphere,was only such peaceful pass,how many were somewhat lonely.because does not want too many people to see the innermost feelings the monologue,therefore has written this diary with English.treats as accepts as a memento,this time's I,am worth the record.the present's life is at the seal the condition.does not have with anybody excessively relates.all mood gradually become silent.sometimes already could not feel own heart whether bright.about the sentiment,already did not dare to think.when I knew that you prepare to leave,sad has cried for a long time.if I have not placed in such accident,I thought that I will be brave a spot to look for you.now already is the thing is the human must,only could say lightly,was happy for you,a person lived wants to look after itself.looks helplessly the reality spreads out two person's slowly,the line gradually is gradually far.is like this sober,bears patiently is called the human the painful success and failure to go to the language.the this year-old birthday desire becomes the most difficult lower pharynx's dialog unexpectedly.I hoped that you realize your dream.I will also refuel,earnest life,many years later,if we can meet again,if we will be lonely a person,I certainly reckless will love you,certainly no longer spiritless giving up