英语翻译Dear Cary,I'm writing because I've understood that you'v

英语翻译
Dear Cary,
I'm writing because I've understood that you've struggled with alcoholism.I've been fighting mine ever since I went through 9/11.After that,I've been more or less useless professionally -- I'm a lawyer -- and have had to resign from my job because I was discovered passed-out drunk in front of my computer.I had started therapy about six months before that,but found that I felt worse off after every session.I've been prescribed Zoloft and it has helped somewhat.I can manage about a month without drinking,but after that I end up having a manic phase where nothing matters except getting my booze on.After a week or so of heavy drinking,I start having nightmares of people jumping.After that,it's a week of not being to able to get out of bed.
I'm going through one of those phases right now.I was supposed to travel to a conference but didn't make it because I got so drunk at the airport I fell down on my face and spent the rest of the day in the drunk tank.I have since been hiding from my family,who fortunately won't be expecting me to come back until a week or so.They will notice the bump on my forehead and two black eyes though.
I don't really know what I'm asking you,Cary.I need a way out that doesn't involve causing pain to my family.Like I said,I've tried therapy (CBT [cognitive behavioral therapy],to be specific) and I'm on medication,but I still have these attacks every few months.At that time,if there's booze in the house,I can't stay away from it.It seems like this will never end.I dread what will happen if something really bad happens,like a family member dying,or the family dog,or getting fired again.
Thanks for reading.
T

我写,因为我了解到,您在使用酗酒斗争.我一直在打我自从我去到9 / 11.之后,我已经或多或少无用专业 - 我是一个律师 - 并不得不辞去我的工作,因为我发现通过,在我的电脑前喝醉了.我开始前6个月左右的治疗,
但发现,我觉得差在每次会议.我已经订Zoloft和它帮助有点.我可以管理,不喝酒约一个月,但之后我最终会产生狂躁阶段时,除了让我的酒就没有什么问题.经过一个星期或酗酒的话,我开始具有跳跃的噩梦.之后,它是一个没有什么可以起床一周.
我经历的一个阶段的现在.我本来前往一个会议,但没能成功,因为我有那么在机场喝我倒下,我的脸,用坦克在喝了一整天.此后,我隐藏了我的家人,谁幸好不会希望我来之前一个星期左右回来.
他们会注意到我的额头和黑色的眼睛虽然在碰撞.
我真不知道我问你,卡里.我需要一个出路,不涉及造成痛苦,我的家人.就像我说的,我已经试过治疗（CBT [认知行为疗法],要有具体的）,我很药物治疗,但我仍然有这些袭击每隔几个月.当时,如果有在家里喝酒,我不能远离它.似乎永远不会有如此的下场.
我害怕会发生什么事情,如果真的不好的事情发生,就像一个家庭成员死亡,或家庭的狗,或者被解雇了.